The Beginning

I have wanted to begin my own blog for quite some time now. I am glad to finally be getting it off the ground. I thought of making this a blog dedicated to only one kind of writing, but that thought quickly left me. Like me, this blog will be multi-faceted. Some days it will chronicle my daily struggles such as balancing family and work. On other entries, I may wax poetic. It will be as inconsistent as I have the tendency to be. Why? Because that's me. Hmmm...this is beginning to sound a bit cynical. I will lighten up a bit. Here we go.

Today was one of those days. I felt the inspiration to get back on the "Mission: to lose 20 pounds as quickly as possible" wagon. I go through this once or twice every couple of years. I have been successful many times, losing 20 lbs and transforming into a carb-counting, calorie- burning, fitness magazine and book-reading machine.Just as quickly I get comfortable and gain the 20 right back. Now before you mentally judge me, I already know that isn't the best approach to take. A life of balance, and moderation would be the healthier way. It isn't about losing the weight fast, it is about losing it in a healthy way. I know. The problem for me is that when the inspiration strikes, I have to get on the wagon. Otherwise I fall in to this acceptance cycle. I tell myself that I should just be happy the way I am, and live happily eating carbs and exercising when I feel like it. The truth is though, that I am not happy with myself the way I am now. Ugh. I need to be inspired. Hopefully, this blog will help me clear out my thoughts and get myself pointed in the direction of inspiration that doesn't die out.
Have you ever wondered why it can be so hard to start a fire in a fireplace or a bonfire when camping, yet entire homes and businesses burn to the ground accidentally all the time? No one coaxed those fires along with the right kindling, just the right amount of lighter fluid, or fire starter logs. Nevertheless, despite all of my efforts with lighter fluid, and whatnot the fire will very often start out strong and die down just as quickly. A "flare up" if you will.
I need the kind of inspiration that starts strong and grows continuing to burn strong and hot, not the kind that flares up in the beginning and dies. How do I accomplish this? My guess would be that it has something to do with all of the right factors being in the right place at the right time. I suppose those kind of circumstances would require careful planning and diligence. Hmmm...
Perhaps I should take the time to carefully plan and diligently plan. Sounds boring, and slow, but it may be my only hope for a sustained BURN.